I Will Survive, dont I?

I think sick people are only in movies and books. I never really imagine that one day it would come to my real life. I never really imagine that I'd REALLY feel it. Did I do something wrong? Well maybe yes. But why is it had to be me? I never been this weak the whole my life. I dont even dare to dream anymore. Is it too much? Once more, maybe yes. Maybe I just need to sync with my condition here now. I wont try to give up even if chances are. I wont try to be the type of girl I'm not. And somehow I know God allows me to face this problem because He knows I can do something much bigger to beat this. I just need to believe in my self that I am stronger than this. This disease wont ruin my dream. It will never. I just need to be more patience. Six months. After that, everything will come back to the first place. Everything will be just fine. I said it first. And it will. I will try my best to make things okay. I will survive, dont I?