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Aku ingat menangis. Ketika kamu pergi, semua abu-abu. Mataku tidak pernah setajam dulu. Aku ingat terpuruk. Mencoba berdiri dan berjalan, namun masa lalu menahanku. Meski begitu, aku ingat bertahan dalam sakit. Menunggu, meski kepastian jauh dari jangkauanku. Hati kecilku selalu berkata penantian sungguh-sungguh akan berbuah manis. Dan aku tetap duduk dengan senyum kecil penuh harap, meski kadang aku merasa hilang dan tanpa arah. Tapi sulit untuk mengatakannya. Senyum kecil itu tidak pernah hilang meski airmata terus mengalir berusaha menutupinya. Harapan itu selalu ada meski kekecewaan sering datang silih berganti. Aku selalu tau, love will lead you back.

Aku selalu menginginkan kehadiranmu. Aku merindukan pundak yang selalu tersedia ketika aku lelah dan sedih, telinga yang selalu terbuka untuk mendengar keluhan dan ocehanku, serta kesediaan menemaniku kapanpun aku butuh. Aku ingin sekali lagi menggenggam tanganmu dan menjagamu terus disampingku. Aku tidak ingin kehilanganmu lagi, sejak kehilanganmu adalah pergumulan terberat yang harus aku lewati. Aku ingin selalu menjadi bagian hidupmu. Bersedia menemanimu dalam suka dan duka, bersedia menjadi bagian dari duniamu. Meski aku tau duniamu tidaklah sempurna. Aku hanya ingin bersamamu.

...selamat datang kembali. Jangan pernah pergi lagi.

SMILE! Enjoy The Little Things

I Will Survive, dont I?

I think sick people are only in movies and books. I never really imagine that one day it would come to my real life. I never really imagine that I'd REALLY feel it. Did I do something wrong? Well maybe yes. But why is it had to be me? I never been this weak the whole my life. I dont even dare to dream anymore. Is it too much? Once more, maybe yes. Maybe I just need to sync with my condition here now. I wont try to give up even if chances are. I wont try to be the type of girl I'm not. And somehow I know God allows me to face this problem because He knows I can do something much bigger to beat this. I just need to believe in my self that I am stronger than this. This disease wont ruin my dream. It will never. I just need to be more patience. Six months. After that, everything will come back to the first place. Everything will be just fine. I said it first. And it will. I will try my best to make things okay. I will survive, dont I?

Will Be Just Fine ;)

I got SO much things lately. The midterm has just perfectly passed away but things are getting worse. I am sick. Not really sure about it but well my mom is pretty sure that i am SICK and i need to take more rests. Well mungkin mama ada benarnya juga. Seminggu sebelum midterm, gue harus ikut LKDS buat pengkaderan OSIS di sekolah which is took time like about 4 hours a day for a week! Woah it was quite tired but it was fun tough. Dan capeknya bener-bener berasa cyin. Midterm did almost the whole same thing. It took more energy and it stolen most of my rest time. Seperti yang sudah-sudah, setiap kali ada tes, gue pasti bakal tidur lebih larut dan bangun lebih cepat. And that was i'm getting now. I think i was just forced my body and brain too much without thinking my own health. I'm not really sure but i think  i just want everything to be fckin perfect so i didnt even took care of my self. I didnt eat well, i didnt sleep enough, i did think a lot, bla bla bla...

Mom told me to re-arrange my dailies schedule and manage it well. Gotta make EAT WELL and SLEEP ENOUGH as my priority. Lessening some unimportant activities, and go home earlier. Sebenernya nggak terlalu susah buat mewujudkan semua itu. Tapi, mom told the thing i've expect from the beginning, and i knew it will happen. Bawa bekal ke sekolah. Man, i am a high school girl now. Grade 11. Dan bawa bekal? Dont you think it's ridiculous? Gue pernah ngalamin ini 2 kali. Waktu SMP dan waktu kelas 10. And it sucks. I mean, itu ribet tau nggak sih. Gue bisa beli makanan di kantin. Gue tau makanannya higienis. Tapi enggak dengan mama. Dia anggap nggak ada makanan yang lebih baik dari makanan buatannya untuk orang rumah yang lagi sakit. Except KFC i guess. But still, i hate it. I DO hate it.

By the way, thanks for you guys who wished me a get well soon. You know i will be really well sooner or later. I love you so much. Thanks xoxo

PARADISE IS OUT!

Hi ladies and gents. This is gonna be my first post in October 2012. Well then, say hi to October. My October wish is that God will still give me strength to face everything I am  going into.

Yesterday, October 2nd 2012, PARADISE IS OFFICIALLY AVAILABLE AROUND THE WORLD. omg i cant tell how delighted i am. i've been waiting for this Cody Simpson's full length album since last year and when it came up, i became extremely extraordinarily happy and excited. I dont mean to act too much but i've became Cody Simpson's die hard fan since his newest song was All Day. Can you imagine? It's been over a year i'm fan-girling about him, but surprisingly i never get bored or tired <3 font="font">

beach waves for Paradise cover.....sweeeeeeeeeet

And since I've been idolizing Paradise since the first time I heard it, I'll share a review about the songs in Paradise.

1. Paradise

Quote/nice part: if i'm dreamin, dont wake me cuz i'm in paradise

2. Got Me Good

Quote/nice part: i wanna know what it feels like to run my finger in your hair

3. Be The One

Quote/nice part: dont over-think it, we dont have to leave yet. we're just having fun, what could go wrong? there aint no question about it, i'm saying it's you that i want

4. Hello

Quote/nice part: hey there, Juliet. can you write me into your story? need a test to prove i can be your romeo

5. Tears On Your Pillow

Quote/nice part: girl, i promise all them cloudy, rainy days are over. hey, and baby imma be your umbrella. hey, you say goodbye to them puffy eyes. love is a war and girl I'll be your soldier. hey, and baby i will fight forever

6. Wish You Were Here (ft. Becky G.)

Quote/nice part: i wish you were here. music is better and lights are brighter when you are near. am i making it clear?

7. I Love Girls

Quote/nice part: thank you, heaven, for making these beautiful angels. i'm in heaven everytime i look out in the...

8. Back To You

Quote/nice part: start a brand new chapter, turn a brand new page. cause there is no story if i lose your face

9. Summer Shade

Quote/nice part: hey nice to meet you, what's your name? i saw you walkin up my way girl. oh maybe we could spend the day. we could lay my jacket out on the sand and do something

10. Gentleman

Quote/nice part: i wanna be the one you hug when the world is just too much. i wanna be the one you trust, i'll keep your secrets between us

That was all 10 songs in Cody Simpson's full length album, Paradise. There are actually 3 extra songs -they are Standing In China, The Reason, and Torn Up- but i can only have it if i buy the copy of cd and because the cd hasnt arrive in Indonesia yet, i cant have it. but anyway, im still trying to get those 3 extra songs. (note for you angels who unable to buy Paradise by iTunes, you can download it free on the internet -just like me- but REMEMBER to buy the original copy when the cd is available in your city, k?)

Cody Robert Simpson, you dont know how pleased your angels were when your album was finally out. We appreciate Paradise with our whole heart. We know this is your hard work and your pure love for us, your angels. We're so happy that you can show the world youre not that 15 year boy, but you are really a talented young singer came from Aussie and surprised the world with your music.

cant wait to have one of Paradise copyyyyyyyy

I love ya, Cody. Now, forever and always. Once a simpsonizer still a simpsonizer. and dont wake me up cause I do in a PARADISE!!